march 31st, 08

this isnt gonna be a happy post. was reading through some of my frens' blogs...n one of them linked me to another person's blog. man, i was speechless as i read through this person's blog. As i scanned through every posts, there was one which made me... aih. sigh.

i've been hearing people diagnosed with diseases everywhere. when u read about a patients's stories of how n what he has to go through during the treatments are really saddening. the even more saddening part is when u learnt that ur being diagnosed with a disease that only can be healed if miracles happen. i mean, one minute u were still happily laughing around with ur families n frens. and the next thing u know, u only have a few months left to live....and....

every little moments become the most precious moments in ur life.

am really praying hard for this fren. and will be praying for my mom too. hopefully she'll be fine.

Dated 5 / 3 / 08

this guy is cute. haha... juz having fun taking pic with him. hehe. nothing else. a law student. man, he just has wat it takes ... !~

hehe.... my boy-fren ? oh no.... ahah... but he does look ok. very smart looking, on the outside only though. aha.

finally get to wear this dress after 1 yr buying it.

just wanna let u see. aha. lazy wana send u the pic.

gosh... i thk i'll never forget this funny incident. my parents came down to visit me here in uni. we went to midvalley by komuter. so, when we got back to the komuter station here, i used my Touch n Go card la...... i kept scanning the card on the 'thing', but there was no 'beep' sound. i scanned a few more times. waited..... then my bro laughed at me from behind. huh ??

then only i realised that i actually scanned my card on the sticker, n not the machine. oh gawdddddd...... how embarrassing ! i hope my bro was the only one who saw what i did ... then he went to tell my parents toO... ish. @_@

hmm... then everytime when i pass by this place, ill thk thk....

" am i too short or i just cant see it ?"

OR

am i toOooO bluRrrr ?

haiyO...

yea... can finally online here. thank God !

thanks to a senior. haha. actuarial science student repairing computer for side income. not bad. really salute him. by the way, his name is wei min. haha. juz wanna keep as rememberance. i know it sounds crazy. we talked for an hour when he came to return me my laptop. was surprised i could talk to a guy stranger for that long. a total stranger. hehe. not bad.

we talked about lotsa stuff. before that i was totally very down with my accounts problems. was supposed to have settled last week, but with some 'issues' , i have to drag till so long. n i hope it wont get me into any problem. geeZ... anyway, felt aLOT better after talking to him. aha. just felt that God sent him here tonight to return me the laptop at the correct time, for the right reasons too. really love u God. muaX. cos before that was praying that someone or anyone pls cheer me up a little. n prayers answered. Praise the Lord o ~ !

it's getting really bored nowadays without activities to keep me occupied. moreover my roomate is so busy with her own activities that i have to stay alone in room. aiyo. talk to the walls.

anyway, happy im able to online again. hope the line is fast enough for me to chat with my family at home via webcam. hehe.

sun/23/3/08

woke up super early this morning.. dizzy dizZyy. went to church with the dizziness. hehe. watched a really cool, but very touching performance by the musician crews. managed to take few pics. they were so good with the lightings that the whole stage looked so colourful n real. it was bout the passion of the christ. how Jesus died n resurrected. they even sang a few songs in the middle of the drama. wow...there was this guy, he really looked like Eric la. his hairstyle. fuh. his voice was superb. sounded bit like Brian Littrell's voice le. the place i was sitting was too far n high from the stage. couldnt get a good look at the 'Jesus'. sometimes, i felt like i was in a huge theatre watching a drama. aha. feel bit low attending this church at times. anyway, it's about worshipping God. =)

later that day, had a long conversation with a fren. it's rather sad listening to the stories my fren told me. it was beyond my imagination that some families can be so 'weird' lo... it's like, the siblings problems, the parents' problems and no understanding nor good communication among the family members. i could see my fren trying hard to hold back the tears in the eyes. it feels so bad la. all i could do was to console lo...saying that there is no such thing as 'perfect family' in this world. no one is perfect. some even end up in a divorce n separation.

after listening to my fren's stories, im kinda grateful n satisfied with what i have now. i just couldnt ask for more, can i ? of course no human will be satisfied with their lives. we always ask for more n more. but when we sit down n look at what we have, wat more can we ask if it wasnt for a happy family, with all our loved ones by our sides ? there surely will be quarrels n fights... but at the end of the day, a family is still a family. my fren even told me this : always appreciate everything u have around u. even little little things can be something to treasure in life n be happy about.

Jesus died on the cross for our sins. the sufferings n tortures that He had to go through were unbearable. now, the question is... where has my faith gone to? i ve been looking so long for it, have i not search deep enough ? =S