today, whole day, i ve been sitting at the couch, dreaming n pondering on how miserable life can be. aih. why la so miserable. so sien.

i've been looking forward to have some fun when the holiday starts. but on n off problems just cant stop coming. hate it so much. at this point, i wonder what's the purpose of life. when there is sadness, there is happiness too. well, it seems to me that sadness conquer more than happiness does.

in may, have been sick twice. first week of holiday only sick ady. then, was actually planning to hav a great time in kl, but sick again. apa la. there goes my first-month holiday.

beginning of june, even with my lil bro having holiday, still got one major problem occured. im starting to dislike holidays. ish. after all the stupid n unwanted problems, when im finally well enough to enjoy a weekend out, mana tau down with rashes all over body. thanks to my neighbour who gave my mum ' man tau' buns. aih. she used some pumpkins as one of the ingredients and bum~! just perfect, im allergic to pumpkins. i never knew that till the past 3 days. for the first time, so damn itchy man. again, i hav to spend my weekends at home. aih.

sadly, i had to turn down every outings with frens. 2 months holiday just fly by like that.
when it comes to situations like this, it always make me question, why does god allow so much suffering in a person's life?