mon, 28/1/08



going home soon. so happy. gonna see my mischievious bro. hehe. too naughty till fever. ahah. guess god is punishing him for playing games 24/7. haha. gonna c whether has he grown any taller this time. glad he went to church after his fren forced him. aha... no one can stop God's plans. just let Him plan n arrange everything n He will open a way.
there's only one person who walks beside me n with me all the time...not behind nor infront. God is Love. =)


Glorious Redeemer

I love You with all my heart
Trust You with all I have
For You hold the heavens and earth in Your hands
You died on a cross for me
Took all my sin and shame
Your name is holy
Exalted above all else

Glorious Redeemer
You have paid for my life
You have gone before me
Now I walk by Your side
I lift my hands to You Lord
For You are worthy of all praise
Jesus reigns
Jesus You reign

Jesus reigns

One thing I ask
That I may dwell in
Your house forever

thur, 20/12/07

this yr, took up U3- time management subject.

met these few nice people.

at first, i was afraid they cant do work n wont cooperate in group project. they even forced me to be the leader. crazy. always kena bully only being the smallest. damn it.

so, prayed hard that God will make them cooperate n wont give me a hard time. =)

however, after few times of discussion, i realised my assumptions were wrong. they did most of the typing n printing. aha. i didnt have to do much also. thank God for that !

when it was our last few classes, we were getting so much closer n had lots of funny conversations. kinda miss them. they are already last yr students. n i realised that it was an opportunity to learn some things from these seniors too.

well, this situation reminds me of the quote..

first impression is not always correct.

it's very true in fact.

love the Santa so much. cost nearly a thousand. whoa. who will buy ? he can even sing....hehe. Ho Ho Ho ~
thur, 20/12/07

chrissie n cynthia's bday. celebrated in starbucks, sunway mall.

thur, 20/12/07

3 days in genting, 2007.

went to genting last weekend. cool. very cold. very very cold.

played most of the games with him lo. bising only. huiyo. sometimes cant stand him. havent even finish one game, wanna rush for other game.

have to queue up for half an hour just to play one game. wth.

i love the spinner. spin n spin me till high up in the sky. cool. can see the beautiful scenery in genting. feel like on top of the world....

went into snowland with him. naughty fella... keep throwing snowballs at my face. i couldnt see n couldnt walk properly. nearly slipped few times.

inside first world. all the lightings.

then saw Fun-Kart ! so cool la....quickly queued up with him. but when reached my turn to sign the documents, the lady told me that im too short ! hey. thats not fair. i can even drive a big car, how can i not be able to drive a kart ? cis ! aih... wat to do.... that s the disadvantage of being short.... he gets to drive it ! so sad watching him driving the kart while i have to snap his pics at the fencing. =_=

when i was walking with him, saw this bunch of kids crowding in front of the cd shop. so funny la... they were enjoying themselves in front of the tv (tom n jerry cartoon). more n more kids came after that when we were leaving the shop. was planning to join them. aha! nothing else to do mah... so sien walking with him round n round the same place. cant play outdoor games at night. too cold.

wed, 12/12/07

yst was really energetic. hehe. came back frm aunt's house, mop floor, washed car n ironed. weird.

then at night watched a hindi show. Baghban, starring Amitha Bachan. the show has some lessons meant to educate the people today. really touching. i just sat there for 20 mins, started crying pula... so continued to watch. then i remembered. the previous show by shah rukh khan was also on the same night aired on the same channel too. every tue night, channel 9.

he has 4 grown up kids, who forced him n his wife to go separate ways so that 4 of them will take turns to take care of them. little did the both of them expect that their children are turning away from them for their own family n neglecting them. the children clarified to them that they are living on their own hard earned money n became successful on their own efforts.

meanwhile their new found frens treated them with much love n care compared to their own kids. there was an orphan whom amitha had helped when he was young. he was treating him n his wife like his own family n provided them both with many things which their kids have neglected.
it is always true that u won appreciate the people u have around u when they r still around.
his grandson accidentally broke his spec. his son didnt even have the time to buy him a new spec. his grandson secretly used the money his dad gave him to buy new shoes, to buy him a new spec instead.

then, it is also about how strong is the love the two has for each other. how much they missed the presence of the other partner during the time they were apart. well, it aint easy to find a couple who devotingly still love each other after so many years...not easy to find lo.

sun, 9/12/07

finally i made it to church.

lots of changes. a real big transformation.

jenny is the worship leader today. we sang here i am to worship, fall, people say im weak but im strong. all lovely songs.

heard that jenny is no longer leading the cell group. so, there is no more cell group for her group, and for me too. i really miss her cell group meetings. really fun and can learn alot about God. ill always hold in my heart the differences she made in my 3 years of life attending church. they are the friendliest people in the church. hmm, why do things have to change? Dennis has left the church for almost a year now. miss her too. though she was very irritating whenever she was around, she's one of my closest frens. since there is no more cell meetings, things will definitely start to change between us. wont be that close anymore. aih...

everything is temporary. nothing lasts forever. that's the reality. only God will forever remain.

thur, 6/12/07

watched Enchanted with him. something happened. (the hotdogs). bit unhappy with his attitude.

i do feel that he is so spoilt sometimes. pampering him, having to agree to everything he wants is not a very good way to make him grow. he has to learn certain things somehow. i do feel im a little spoilt as well. so didnt want him to go through the same way of growing up.

has been nearly 2 weeks now. xmas is approaching. his birthday is coming...

reminds me of mousie's bday too. chatted with him last 2 days. made me miss him. still handsome n funny. hehe. things are not the same without him around to chat with. was surprised he could remember the day we met better thn i did..memories. hmm.. =/ fate just didnt cross our paths.

learnt that one of my relatives is dying from liver cancer too. (again). wat a deadly disease. heard that he has only 2 months left. but at least, he is also dying of old age. he has no other worries.

my cousin bro's mum's death anniversary is next week. time just flies by so fast. u cant even imagine how fast it is. the incident n everthing is still vivid in my mind. the funeral brought us back together. had a quarrel with him n never talked since.

oh, have 2 good news. cynthia is coming back soon. =) and i m finally able to play the Umbrella song. hehe...

it's already 3.30 am. aih. my timing is all upside down. can i wake up early tomorrow ?

tue, 4/12/07

went to get hair cut today. not exactly hair cut... but to perm pula. worth a try. aha...


came home, my lil bro laughed n said i look like a baby. alamak. has been calling me baby since then. crazy. still, he said my previous hairstyle is nicer.


already permed, no choice. i just wanna have a try. like wavy style. NOT curly. guess it's ok kut.. but am never gonna perm again.
doesnt matter la. so expensive. hairstylists really can earn lots of money.

thur, 29/11/07

i slept a LOT today...

so nothing much happened.

played badminton with my lil bro in the evening at our porch. lazy wanna play basketball, as i have to drive to the court.

not sure of the plans i have for tmr. really wanna go out talk talk, but then... aih, lazy la. why cant i cycle or just walk if i wanna meet a fren? everyone stays so far away.

really geram la......dont have the mood to blog. so geram. ish. so so wanted to play a full song with guitar, but i never seemed to improve my guitar skills. hate it so much. it's really testing my patience. is there someone who can sit down beside me, to teach me... just once will do. aih.

been thinking whether to attend church this sunday. most of my frens have left the church now. there are some people i dont like to see. some are just ......aih. people. u know. feel that a few are hypocrits. they love to ask the same old questions. i just dont like people to force me into doing something i dont like. but it's just so hard to give the same excuses.

couldnt find that Umbrella song either. i dont want jay z singing with her. why cant he leave her alone with the song? it sounded much better without him, pls.

hope tmr's weather is good.

wed, 28/11/07

hey, today went to sunway mall. from 1 pm til 5pm. met cynthia there. hehe. so fun to chit chat with her in popular bookstore. she really can make me laugh. aha... i need these kind of frens to be around me or else my life will be very dull n lifeless. basically, she can talk bout everything, any topics..... n very funny somemore.

haha....

bought a christmas tree. so happy. the previous one at home was eaten by ants. eeww....those ants are really absurd la. hate them so much. even in my hostel room , they just cant seem to leave me! they cant leave me in peace.

then, walked past watsons. met a long lost fren. a malay girl. she was my next door neighbour... mum said hi n talked for awhile. she is only 22 this year. her mum passed away almost 3 years ago cause of diabetes. she told us wat she had to go through after her mum passed away. aih...

she told us that she, her younger bro n her dad went separate ways for more than a year. everything went haywire after her mum passed. it's sad to hear her story. her mum used to make laksa, karipap and lots of nice food for us when we were neighbours back then. it's really hard to believe what happened to her. aih.... she had to take care of her dad....do the housework n the cooking.

hmm.... it's very sad to hear these kind of stories. just like my cousins. one lost his dad to liver cancer and another lost his mum to heart attack. n they were all very young at that time. why are there so many deadly diseases these days. more n more people are dying at a young age these days. aih.

the other day i watched one of shah rukh khan's movies at my hostel. dont know what the title of the movie is, but it has a very very meaningful storyline, i must say. he went to a village n learnt about the sufferings of the poor people. a kid had to run all around selling drinks at the railway station when the train arrives. so sad to see that. aih. i was watching with a malay girl.....n i couldnt help it, so a few tears streamed down my cheeks. aih.....very touching ma.... and that girl who was sitting beside me saw me crying, n told my other frens bout it. aiyoh. so embarrassing la. ish.

sometimes, been thinking of helping out in orphanage or the old folk's homes, but it's not easy la. my parents definitely wont allow me to go over to penang alone, doing all these by myself. just have to wait for few more years.

i wanna practise playing that song dee.....my dad taught me how just now. aiyah, why la i so stupid one. never thought it is actually so simple.

oh, just now we set up the Xmas tree.... hehe. tmr snap the pic let u see, k... too bad no Snowman. love it so much. wanted to buy one, but kinda expensive.

muaX ~

mon, 26/11/07

woke up at 11.30am. whoa. had a real good sleep. then taught lil bro maths.... aiyo.. had to raise my voice when teaching him. he's just always dreaming. then played basketball with him in taman bagan court. still under renovation. but there's some space where we can play half court. ahah...so fun. i beat him by 25 - 16. cool. had a good sweat.

played ps2 with him at night.... missed my csi las vegas. aiyah. totally forgot bout it. it's kinda late now.... wanna write u a post bout my roomate.

well, i gotta say im very grateful to have her as my roomate. so far, everything's fine with us. we are very frank with each other. we shared some personal problems too. she's ok la. i mean, im satisfied with her so far. she can make me laugh. really. i feel that she's a very funny girl. especially the way she talks. she finds me weird for laughing at the things she said. n for her funny character too..... she can fall asleep on the table or chair while reading. it's damn funny. i even secretly took a few pics of her sleeping. aih. really miss her during holiday.

ahaha.... the other day she was too tired. so she slept like this... i had to cover her with blanket n put a pillow beside her. she's so cute la. aih.

when we 're bored in the evening or at night, we used to go 'dating' at the rooftop of our hostel block. thats what we called it.... dating. aha. we can see people playing tennis from our rooftop. n enjoy the wind.

all in all, im glad God made her my roomie. am really thankful lo...

we have been roomates for more than a year ady...

some of my frens have lots of problems or didnt even communicate with their roomie at all. i cant imagine how dull that will be if that happens to me. but, the truth is, u just gotta tolerate, give n take , n try to understand her character. that helps in accepting her bad attitudes. i always believe that, when u treat a person good, she ll treat u the same way in return. but of course, never expect too much. u can never expect them to be like the frens whom u grow up with.

Mon, 26/11/07








thx chrissie for sending me these pix...very cute with meaningful words....

finally im home. home sweet home. just so happy to be home, especially after exam. =)

get to see my lil bro...who has grown so much taller by the way. =(
well, i should be happy for him that he's now taller than me. anyhow, guys are better looking with a good height.
so nice to hug him to sleep at night. hehe. still so manja and cute.
when is he gona grow up la, i wonder.....hmm.

came back, makan nando. went auto city n the international lantern festival is still there. so bright with all the lights hanging around.

then went prangin the next day. was supposed to go on sat, but whole bridge was jammed. even the ferry too. so fun to shop...after so so long stuck in that hostel room. gonna go crazy if i stayed for another month. hehe. seriously.

then started to change a new blogskin n continued with the editing process, which was like.....whoa....so tiring staring at the laptop. but am satisfied with the outcome.

so many stories to tell......but first, gotta have a good sleep. will write u a story a day. =)

God was with me through all my ups n downs for this sem, which just ended. am grateful He was always there in my heart to make me stronger n pulled me up when i nearly fall...

what else to say...? God is good, all the time ~ muaX~

haha...

this is even scarier than my pic... it really scared me la when he showed me via webcam. i nearly screamed. aha. he straightened her hair. oh my god...aih. i guess some of u should can still recognize who this is. haha. but he still look handsome la. =) just post this for fun. hehe. he purposely msg me to ask me online n look at this...oh dear.

this is the message i read today... thought of sharing it =)

My uncle who lives in Florida, was discouraged by the lack of fruit on his grapefruit tree. someone told him he needed to whack the trunk of the tree a few times with a board. apparently, there is some truth to this unusual method of encouraging growth. one gardening expert says, 'at times, the flowering hormone in the tree seems to get stuck n no flowers appear. carefully persuade the tree to flower by shocking it. hit the trunk...several times..(which wil cause) small bruises in the bark.'

when trouble comes into our lives, we sometimes feel as if we've been hit broadside. we feel desperation n then we wonder. 'why is this happening to me?'
one possibility is that God is using a painful experience to get our attention. in psalm 119:71. david wrote, 'it's good for me that i've been afflicted, that i may learn your statutes.'

is God using pain in our lives to lovingly persuade us to change? the season of trouble may not be easy, but if we let ourselves be trained by it, new growth will result as we become more like His Son.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 ~ to everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven.

does love means sacrifices ? or to sacrifice is to love ? love needs sacrifices ? geEzz... confusion.

cause life is life. everything is unpredictable. no one has the precise answer for everything that happens in our lives. all we can do is to tell ourselves : everything happens for a reason.

when a sheep lost its shepherd, it losts its way too. but as time passes by, the sheep will eventually find its way out.