darling , loOk... this is the card u sent me by post all the way to my uni. hehe. the 2 loves are so adorable. so pink....love u so much. n miss u toO. see....i hang it beside my desk. so whenever my days are blue, i can look at it n remember that there's always my best buddy SiewPing ,who will be there for me always.
and...ur stars toO....so many of it. aha...so colorful also... it's placed right in front of me...at the center of my desk. aha....don cry ar when u read this...ahah...let ur bf see how much i treasure it. aha. just wanna say a big thank you for everything that u ve done for me. it means so much to me. ur supports, encouragements n presence are like the colorful stars which help my days to shine when i see dark clouds.

look... i get my hair cut in mid valley! for rm20 only. back in my home is always around rm25 -30. the shop is Derrick&Team. although the guy is so masam muka, he did a satisfying job. hehe.. i was worried whether he understoOd what type of hairstyle i wanted. i ve always stick to one hairstylist nearby my home. but no choice, i couldnt stand this long hair la... dono why. too long makes me feel that my head is heavy n body is smaller. aha... this is my new hostel roOm. love it so much. so spacious n i love the bathroom! my desk, now is just the beginning. later there will be lots of papers decorating the blue board. look...there's the windchine that agnes bought for me.
& this is the lovely bathroOm ive been talking bout. it's so beautiful. it's even nicer than my house's. with the soothing colour tiles, u just don wanna get out of the bathroom after bathing. hehe. n loOk, there's a big mirror roo.
hehe...i just cant help it. i just had to take the pics. but everything's clean. so no yuckis....by the way, i just cleaned the bathroom. too bad cant see the stars shining from the tiles n toilet bowls...hehe.

that's my palmolive bodyfoam. hehe. reminds me of Chandler Bing from Friends who used the Palmolive soap to wash the potatoes Monica told him to. aha...missed the show so much. gonna watch it again when free....

i dont thk my frens will be so lucky to have this kind of bathroom in their hostel. eheh. jealous le...

well, that's alot to crap bout a bathroom. haha. u guys know how important bathroom is to me. not bathroom, the cleanliness of a bathroom. yep...

anyway, gotta makan dinner now.... choa... ~

by the way, today is a good day. =)

it feels hard to let go. i wonder will i ever regret if i do it.

if i really wanna let it go, then i wont be turning back. everything that we ve shared n all the fun times, so memorable. well, though life may lead me to somewhere else, a destiny which i may not be expecting or wish to have, ill still keep those sweet memories in my heart. never had i experienced such moments before.

sometimes life just put u on hold. just feel bit stuck. it feels like there's a huge rock in front of me n i have to use all my energy to move it, but i realise that it's beyond my strength at the end of the day. no matter how hard u try to push it away so that u can see ur future n wish to see what u expect in ur life, ur just stuck there behind the rock. have to use a hammer n ham it little by little until it's all destroyed. hehe. which takes years n years...

aih...wat to do. there are many things in life that we have no rights to decide for ourselves. the more u want it, the further n further it gets. n it hurts. what my godbro told me was very true. life is just like a butterfly. if u keep chasing it, it will fly further away from u. it will come to u eventually when u just let it go. wat is 'it' here ar ? hehe.

kinda miss literature in high sch. studying Shakespeare's was fun. so meaningful. forgotten the verses already. it's a very beautiful text from one of his poems which the movie the Prince n I recited it. oh, i found it. it's Sonnet 148.
O me, what eyes hath Love put in my head,
Which have no correspondence with true sight!
Or, if they have, where is my judgment fled,
That censures falsely what they see aright?
If that be fair whereon my false eyes dote,
What means the world to say it is not so?
If it be not, then love doth well denote
Love's eye is not so true as all men's 'No.'How can it?
O, how can Love's eye be true,
That is so vex'd with watching and with tears?
No marvel then, though I mistake my view;
The sun itself sees not till heaven clears.
O cunning Love! with tears thou keep'st me blind,
Lest eyes well-seeing thy foul faults should find.

sometimes just feel like life is so unpredictable. will i ever know what my future is really like ?

these few days felt bit mOody... had been mssing someone. and it seems like it's getting more n more. it feels kinda weird tOo. why must i be mssing this fren ? i hate this kind of feelings. it just drains out my energy unnecessarily.

had been very cold these few days tOo... maybe it's because of the weather.....or is it not ? no idea. a bit blur blur.....

i feel like im living in Genting now. it's freezing cold even in the afternoon. i had to wear socks n sweater in my room. imagine...a girl who perspires so easily is wearing sweater n socks in the afternoon ? i wonder will it snow too, soon ? who knows what the weather can do....

sometimes just feel bit lost. should i or should i not be doing what im doing now ? people always say never try never know. but if never try u might regret it. but IF u try, u might have some risks to face too. ah...life is just full of risks, isnt it ? well, i guess that's what life is. life is never beautiful without pain.

feel so lazy to take my bath...touching the ice-cold water.....but feel sleepy n lazzzy if didnt bathe...aiyah...bathe la.

tmr will be a one fine day ! cos ill be having calculus quiz n also my class starts frm 8 am - 4pm. night will have jaksa meeting frm .....forgot the time pulak. aiks. getting blurrer these days. still it feels nice when ur floating in the air.....

eh...am i crapping too much ? hehe. gotta go mandi.....muaX.
by the way, yst, sunday had gotong royong in my kolej. it was fun though. i managed to snap pics of myself painting the rocks in front of our cafe. will post them when free la....n if i still remember.

oh, it's on top there dee...

my yellow easter eggs. eheh.

it's really stupid la. ish. already typed everything then the stupid page tells me that it cannot publish my post due to dono wat stupid failure. make me retype everything. argh.....

aih.

today went to church...after so so long....
had a good time in church just now....
today's service was meant for us --> yOuth
hehe....so sang a few songs....it has been so long since i worshiped God. aiks...

met Gina toO ! it's weird u know... when we were back in penang, we didnt get a chance to meet up, but we bump into each other in kl pulak...
she looks so much prettier with her new hairstyle... misS her alOt.... misS other frens toO..... what tO dO... thats life.

today's message was meaningful n interesting.
the pastor told us bout thomas edison who went through thousands of failures in his attempt to create a light bulb. there were some other great people whom he mentioned too. Abraham Lincoln. well, i got to know him when i was doing my research on Alzheimer's disease. his stories reminded me of Billy Lim, who wrote the book 'Dare to Fail'. i wanted to own a copy of that book, but couldnt find in store. all sold out. should ve bought it for second hand from my sch library.

before the service ended, he told us a story.

there was a farmer who had 2 pots. he carried both pots over his shoulder, one on his right side n the other on another side. one of his pots is cracked. so water kept dripping down to the ground whenever he carried both pots to water his farm. so this cracked pot apologize to its master for not doing a good job. but the master told the pot that it was actually a very special pot, although it was cracked. as the master walked past the same path to his farm one day, he showed the cracked pot the wonderful thing it had done for him. there were many beautiful flowers grown along the path where the water had dripped out frm the pot. n the master told his cracked pot....although it is cracked n not very useful, it still made him happy for if it wasnt for the water that dripped out everyday, he wouldnt have the chance to see such beautiful flowers along the way to his farm n it actually was something wonderful for him. as for the other pot which is in good condition, there is nothing but just plain soil on its side.

do not think that just because u have some weakpoints, ur useless n weak.
no one is perfect. god created each n everyone of us in our own unique ways. he made us with different capabilities. so wat if u cant get straight As in exams? what if ur not able to do what others can do ? there is always limitations in everyone's abilities. just use whatever talent u have n do no compare. use all the time tat u have. as long as u try ur best n put all the efforts that u have into the task ur given, so that at the end of the day, when god checks on u, he will say, 'well done, u ve done ur job well.'
^-^

aiks...suddenly feel so hungry. shouldnt have eaten the orange at night...
gota go. muaX

today is today's date.

hmm... went to class today. yst skipped cos of wanting to meet our pak Lah. =) never expect to shake his hand. ahah. that memory will definitely last forever.
but never regret skipping classes yst though felt bit uneasy.

today went for classes. but lecturers just entered for awhile. intro only. tue class is kinda packed.
good thing wed's class starts at 1 pm. can sleep til.... hehe.. i just love sleeping. couldnt help it.
just feel that sleeping is the best thing in the world that i can do, that i want to do. when ur asleep, u just feel free, peaceful, like in paradise. no worries for awhile.

today had a little 'thing' with one of my coursemates. she gave this kind of comments that made me feel so ...frustrating ? dono la. just dont like those comments. well, being active is something positive, dont u think so ? it helps to mould u into a different person. i enjoy it. though it's tiring, of course. waiching said before, no pain, no gain. aih. there are just so many things/ aims in life that a person has to achieve. but ... not everyone is so perfect, can handle everything perfectly. can achieve whatever he wants. i know that nothing is impossible n when there's a will, there's always a way. but a human's abilities are limited. god created us individually in our own unique ways. aih. i also dono what im writing bout. just a bit confused.

just wondering what im doing now .... am i on the right path...... aih. life is confusing. have to make quite a big sacrifice. might not have much time for family n close frens dee. will really miss u guys. i still call my mom everyday... but maybe talk less dee compared to last time. hope i won miss anything important at home. i really want to see my lil bro go through his teenage life. but wat to do ... im so far away. can only see him for awhile through webcam during weekends. thats definitely not enough le...

watever la, i can only try to work things out properly n be careful not to mess up my academic.
but watever it is, i know that god is always walking with me. just need to have faith n he will lead me through. =)

it feels a lil weird stepping on this huge strawberries.



















this is a trip to cameron from 22 - 24 june. went with my hostel frens. too bad not my close frens.
if not i will surely enjoy my trip.






this girl is also from penang. cpt. a nice fren.

-july 7 -
a dinner with our hostel's principle n also the juniors. didnt manage to snap pics with them. no camera la.
in her house compound. made this baju kebaya for rm 45. okla. but very low-cut.

ate a lot. yummy. hehe.
it's actually the last day of the juniors orientation.

date : july 9/07

the orientation week was really tiring n stressful. especially when im in charged of ptptn. we have almost 200 students in our hostel n we only have 2 facilitators handling the students' ptptn.

although it was tiring, we only slept for about 3 hours everyday, I did enjoy the experience la. this is like a once in lifetime experience. at the end of the day, I still feel that what I did was worthwhile. some of the students kept thanking me for helping them with the printing. well, I tell u, this yr the ptptn system has changed. they have to apply online. it's really troublesome. aih. don't wish to comment further.

this yr's juniors are very sporting. they actually did a surprise for us. they sang the song seasons in the sun with the lyrics being edited. I recorded. will try to ask yc to help me post it up. but I thk that will surely slow down the opening of the page. nvm la.

ill just post up pictures. this sem gonna be very busy la……not sure when ill be able to go home. miss my frens so much. however, I also get to make some new frens here. a lot actually. all the funny n cute juniors. there’s this guy, junior, very cute n talkative. haha. n he can even sing very well too. I just feel that….for the first time in my life I m enjoying myself socialising with new frens. I ve never been this frendly n talkative to strangers. at least my socialising skills had improved. ^-^

there's only one major problem. I have to tumpang as setinggan in one of the juniors' room. aih. don't know how long I have to stay there. it is definitely hard to share things n space with people. there are 3 people in one room. imagine me sleeping on the floor somemore. aiyoh. n my roommates now are twins. hehe. so cute. but they have one weird character. they don’t on the fan at night. im not the cold blooded creature la. n I perspire too easily n a lot too. so now I have to wear sleeveless n short pants at night. nvm la, wash less clothes. ehe. I hope can get along well with them. not sure gonna stay with them for how long… but not bad also la. my permanent room is way too far from my hostel’s café. at least now it's more convenient in some ways though I have to tumpang. there's always the pros n cons la.

oh yah, today had to skip class. first day already have to skip class. but then I get to shake our pak Lah's hand. haha. I managed to get some people's attention n they made some little space for me to see pak lah. n he could see me too. hehe. wow. this is something I never expect to do.
all in all, get to make new frens n apart from that, get to improve other frenships as well.