it feels hard to let go. i wonder will i ever regret if i do it.

if i really wanna let it go, then i wont be turning back. everything that we ve shared n all the fun times, so memorable. well, though life may lead me to somewhere else, a destiny which i may not be expecting or wish to have, ill still keep those sweet memories in my heart. never had i experienced such moments before.

sometimes life just put u on hold. just feel bit stuck. it feels like there's a huge rock in front of me n i have to use all my energy to move it, but i realise that it's beyond my strength at the end of the day. no matter how hard u try to push it away so that u can see ur future n wish to see what u expect in ur life, ur just stuck there behind the rock. have to use a hammer n ham it little by little until it's all destroyed. hehe. which takes years n years...

aih...wat to do. there are many things in life that we have no rights to decide for ourselves. the more u want it, the further n further it gets. n it hurts. what my godbro told me was very true. life is just like a butterfly. if u keep chasing it, it will fly further away from u. it will come to u eventually when u just let it go. wat is 'it' here ar ? hehe.

kinda miss literature in high sch. studying Shakespeare's was fun. so meaningful. forgotten the verses already. it's a very beautiful text from one of his poems which the movie the Prince n I recited it. oh, i found it. it's Sonnet 148.
O me, what eyes hath Love put in my head,
Which have no correspondence with true sight!
Or, if they have, where is my judgment fled,
That censures falsely what they see aright?
If that be fair whereon my false eyes dote,
What means the world to say it is not so?
If it be not, then love doth well denote
Love's eye is not so true as all men's 'No.'How can it?
O, how can Love's eye be true,
That is so vex'd with watching and with tears?
No marvel then, though I mistake my view;
The sun itself sees not till heaven clears.
O cunning Love! with tears thou keep'st me blind,
Lest eyes well-seeing thy foul faults should find.