Thursday, June 29
A song of an OrphanThe river flows from north to west,
I have come to take a rest.
Under trees, the grass like bed,
There I lay my weary head.
I sing a song that is of mine,
About a widow who was kind.
She gave an orphan a place to stay,
Who cared for him everynight and day.
One day came some wicked men,
Who claimed the boy belonged to them.
Poor old widow fought alone,
To tell the world that they were wrong.
In the end she won with pride,
Little boy sat down and cried.
"Fear no evil my little lady,
Dry your eyes that are now wet.
I will see you be a man, a wise man always in all lands."
Now that she is no longer here,
But her words to me are still clear.
Wise I have been because of her, like a mother she was, very dear.
Originally byThe White Pilgrim
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Monday, June 19
[ '' PraIse the LoRd !!! ~ * ]oh ~ my happiest moment ever ! ~
when i filled in the application form, i chose all the universities in west malaysia only.
usm,upm,utm,uum and upsi. cause an MCA speaker told us that our results have to be very good in order to get into UKM or UM. so, those universities were not in my list.
when i was editing my application form for the last time, i changed UUM (kedah) to UKM (kl).
i was changing it for fun cause i know the chances of getting into UKM are lower. after that, my frens told me that i shouldnt have applied UKM cause of the low chances of getting in.
aih.....i was so upset. means....i wasted one choice. haiyah..... i cannot do anything already, so forget bout it then.
i keep praying n praying that i will be given any universities that God want to place me in. and whichever course that he wants me to learn too. but surely, i hope ill get usm in penang.
today, i was informed that i got UKM. wah ! it was beyond my expectation. totally.
i was kinda sad n reluctant to go for UKM. cause i couldnt find any friends who are going to UKM.
then my mom was telling me that she hopes gina will get UKM...both christians going there together....cause she's the only one who didnt know which uni she's sent to.
then later gina called me n told me she got ukm. hahaha. how happy i was ! really praise the lord for that ! and few mins later, gina gave me another good news. subatra,my fren, too is taking the same course in the same university with me ! i couldnt control my happiness !
now i feel that im so blessed ! i really really am grateful and thankful to our Father for giving me such wonderful plans. i know, as long as i keep my faith n keep on believing in Him, he'll see and carry me through.
now i know that no matter how tough my life will be in the future, i can always put my trust in him for he will take care of me everyday !
praise Him ! the one n only true God *
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Wednesday, June 14
[ `` Little bOy * ]( a fren of mine forwarded this story to me. in it ,it was written that the story can move us till cry.
it is a touching yet beautiful one. =)
Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"
The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy
didn't make it."
Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more?
Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"
The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son?
One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to her son.
She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom."
She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."
Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult.
It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings,and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on
the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me;
but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you,
just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU.
I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day.
Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me.
This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything.The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what?!
Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that i wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye n everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed.
Well, you know what Mom?
God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions u asked Him,
'Where was He when I needed him?'
"God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there,as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have o give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life.
Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.
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Tuesday, June 13
[ ``Angel's life struggles *] ... `this story is not bout me !`My story begins by me being told I was pregnant. Little did I know my world would be tore to shreds In just a few short months.I went to the doctor for a ultra sound in my fourth month.I looked so forward to this appointment.After my ultra sound they sent me up stairs to talk to the doctor. He looked at me and said I am very sorry we found something wrong. I see that your child has a hole in her heart and said were going to send you to another doctor that deals with babies that have problems.
When I went to this doctor he wanted to do another ultra sound to see what he could find out.After the ultra sound I got more bad news. The doctor said I see the hole in her heart but I also see water on the brain and that she will be downs.My heart dropped I thought this can not be happening. I listened to more of what the doctor had to say.Now he was telling me that he wanted me to have an abortion explaining to me that if I didn't her head would grow so big during the next few months. When she was born she would be so deformed I would not be able to look at her. He gave me a limited time to let him know what I decided.
On the way home that day I was praying."God I cant do this I have always been against abortion but now with what the doctor said what do I do?" As I was driving home and praying for help I felt the baby move for the very first time almost to say mommy please don't let them hurt me. I knew that God had answered my prayer from that day forward I put Angels destiny in Gods hands. I went back to the doctor to tell him that I would not abort my baby. I explained to him only God can take her from me. I don't want to be the taker of ones life. It is wrong.
My doctor looked at me as if I had lost my mind but never did he question what I said. Months went by and many ultra sounds were done all of them showing she was getting worse. The water on her brain was enlarging her head. I told the doctor she would not have water on the brain that god was going to heal her.Once again he looked at me like I had lost my mind.The time came for my child to be born. They had me hooked up to monitors. They were telling me that we were going to loose her that she was under distress.
I spoke up and said she will not die God won't let that happen. At this point the doctor tells my preacher to go in and tell me that theres a chance she will die that I needed to be prepared. My preacher replied no! God will take care of her. I know my doctor thought this whole bunch has lost it.
Well the time came to deliver the baby and as she was being born the look on the doctors face was amazing. Even though I couldn't see her as she was being born I knew the look on his face wasn't because something was wrong. I knew he was seeing a miracle. Angel was born with the prettiest small round head you ever did see. Angel did have a hole in her heart and she was downs but she was a blessing from God above. After she was born they sent me to my room. My doctor came in and sat beside me on my bed and we talked about what happened. I ask my doctor how he could deliver babies every day that had problems. He looked at me and said when I deliver a baby like yours. He told me that he had never in all his years of practice delivered a child that got to go in the regular nursery. Now you have to understand this doctor only delivered problem children. After they are born he is not suppose to have any other contact with the child or parent but he did me and my Angel.
She touched him, God showed him what he could do. Every time Angel went back to the hospital for surgery he was there. He kept up with Angels progress all the time. When I couldn't go in I.C.U. he went in to see her and even brought her a stuffed animal to be with her. When the time came for god to take her home the doctor that delivered her had called up to her room to check on her. I had to tell him she was not doing well he told me he would be there to see her after while but Angel had went to heaven a few hours later.
The doctor came during the time they were telling me she had passed away. He looked like he was going to burst into tears.I was told many things over her five months she was here. Everything the other doctors said she could not do she did them any way. She blessed many people in the hospital and blessed many people she met out side of the hospital.
God gave me five wonderful months with her. I knew he didn't let me down. He honored my faith, He used her to bless people. Angels work on earth was done.She had one lovely older sister [Mandy Langford] and now she has three other sisters, Nicole, Amber and Breanna, all of them miss her as her parents do.
(her mom displayed lots of her pics, i hope she wont mind me displaying 1 here.)
(as i was surfing the net, i found this site, with this touching story. so just thought of posting it.... seeing the miracles God had done in their lives. )
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Saturday, June 10
[ *Living Inspiration* ]My name is Nick Vujicic and I give God the Glory for how He has used my testimony to touch thousands of hearts around the world! I was born without limbs and doctors have no medical explanation for this birth “defectâ€Â. As you can imagine, I was faced with many challenges and obstacles.
*"Consider it pure joy, my Brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds."
....To count our hurt, pain and struggle as nothing but pure joy? As my parents were Christians, and my Dad even a Pastor of our church, they knew that verse very well. However, on the morning of the 4th of December 1982 in Melbourne (Australia), the last two words on the minds of my parents was "Praise God!". Their firstborn son had been born without limbs! There were no warnings or time to prepare themselves for it. The doctors we shocked and had no answers at all! There is still no medical reason why this had happened and Nick now has a Brother and Sister who were born just like any other baby. The whole church mourned over my birth and my parents were absolutely devastated.
Everyone asked, "if God is a God of Love, then why would God let something this bad happen to not just anyone, but dedicated Christians?" My Dad thought I wouldn't survive for very long, but tests proved that I was a healthy baby boy just with a few limbs missing. Understandably, my parents had strong concern and evident fears of what kind of life I'd be able to lead. God provided them strength, wisdom and courage through those early years and soon after that I was old enough to go to school. The law in Australia didn't allow me to be integrated into a main-stream school because of my physical disability. God did miracles and gave my Mom the strength to fight for the law to be changed. I was one of the first disabled students to be integrated into a main-stream school.
I liked going to school, and just try to live life like everyone else, but it was in my early years of school where I encountered uncomfortable times of feeling rejected, weird and bullied because of my physical difference. It was very hard for me to get used to, but with the support of my parents, I started to develop attitudes and values which helped me overcome these challenging times. I knew that I was different but on the inside I was just like everyone else. There were many times when I felt so low that I wouldn't go to school just so I didn't have to face all the negative attention. I was encouraged by my parents to ignore them and to try start making friends by just talking with some kids. Soon the students realized that I was just like them, and starting there God kept on blessing me with new friends. There were times when I felt depressed and angry because I couldn't change the way I was, or blame anyone for that matter.
I went to Sunday School and learnt that God loves us all and that He cares for you. I understood that love to a point as a child, but I didn't understand that if God loved me why did He make me like this? Is it because I did something wrong? I thought I must have because out of all the kids at school, I'm the only weird one. I felt like I was a burden to those around me and the sooner I go, the better it'd be for everyone. I wanted to end my pain and end my life at a young age, but I am thankful once again, for my parents and family who were always there to comfort me and give me strength.
Due to my emotional struggles I had experienced with bullying, self esteem and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing my story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything get in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams. One of the first lessons that I have learnt was not to take things for granted.
( continue ... )
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this is a forwarded story i received from a fren.
it's very touching n an encouraging msg.
=)
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"And we know that in all things God works for the best for those who love Him."
That verse spoke to my heart and convicted me to the point where that I know that there is no such thing as luck, chance or coincidence that these "bad" things happen in our life. I had complete peace knowing that God won't let anything happen to us in our life unless He has a good purpose for it all. I completely gave my life to Christ at the age of fifteen after reading John 9.
Jesus said that the reason the man was born blind was "so that the works of God may be revealed through Him."
I truly believed that God would heal me so I could be a great testimony of His Awesome Power. Later on I was given the wisdom to understand that if we pray for something, if it's God's will, it'll happen in His time. If it's not God's will for it to happen, then I know that He has something better.
I now see that Glory revealed as He is using me just the way I am and in ways others can't be used. I am now twenty-one years old and have completed a Bachelor of Commerce majoring in Financial Planning and Accounting. I am also a motivational speaker and love to go out and share my story and testimony wherever opportunities become available. I have developed talks to relate to and encourage students through topics that challenge today's teenagers. I am also a speaker in the corporate sector. I have a passion for reaching out to youth and keep myself available for whatever God wants me to do, and wherever He leads, I follow.
I have many dreams and goals that I have set to achieve in my life. I want to become the best witness I can be of God's Love and Hope, to become an international inspirational speaker and be used as a vessel in both Christian and non-Christian venues. I want to become financially independent by the age of 25, through real estate investments, to modify a car for me to drive and to be interviewed and share my story on the "Oprah Winfrey Show"! Writing several best-selling books has been one of my dreams and I hope to finish writing my first by the end of the year.
It will be called "No Arms, No Legs, No Worries!"
I believe that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits on God who can do all things. We put God in a "box". The awesome thing about the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that it is God through us and we can't do anything without Him. Once we make ourselves available for God's work, guess whose capabilities we rely on? God's!
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Wednesday, June 7
[ " bball gaMe with mY bRo ]Yesterday we bought a basketball. the price ranges from rm 3 to rm 40. wah... rm3 also got. haha. it's still as big as the rm 40 ball wor. but we get the rm 10 ball. hehe. cant fork out rm 40 just for a ball la. ( stingy *) X)
aiyah, my bro woke me up at 8.45 am .... to get scolding from me. haha. cant wake up so early la. slept at 2 am the night before. so i continued to sleep .......
my hp alarm, which he had set, rang n woke me up again at 9 am. ish. okla. i'd already gave my word to play with him this morning. dont wanna disappoint him la. ( i always do! hehe) later he'll have tuition in the evening.
so we went to the ria court, my frens n i usually play in. as wat i ve expected, the whole place was so hot. the sun was shining ever so brightly. i hate hot weather. makes me feel dizzy n blur.
so i hide at a corner, under the shadow of the small tree, staring at my bro playing.
i wonder how his ball can masuk the ring, just first time shoot only le. wah, maybe i underestimate him. ceh.
i thk it's time i should do something. so, i prayed for a change of the weather. hoping that the sun will disappear or something. i joined my bro n we played for awhile under the sun.
eh... suddenly the whole area turned cloudy. the clouds were blocking the sun! yeah ! n the place was getting so windy too. wah, nice - nya.
my bro was telling me.... wah... God changed the weather to let us play. how great.
we didnt wanna leave the place as it was such a nice weather for us to play. so cooling n both the courts were ours. we played from one court to the other.
although we played for 15 mins under the hot sun, we were also given 25 mins break to really enjoy ourselves.
satisfaction guaranteed ! =D
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Tuesday, June 6
[ " LoVe for enemIes ]" but i tell u who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate u, bless those who curse u, n pray for those who ill-treat u.
If anyone hits u on one cheek, let him hit the other one too; if someone takes your coat, let him has your shirt as well.
Give to everyone who asks u for something, n when someone takes what is yours, do not ask for it back. Do for others just what u want them to do for u.
32 : If u love only the people who love u, why should u receive a blessing ? Even sinners love those who love them! n if u do good only to those who do good to u, why should u receive a blessing ? even sinners do that. n if u lend only to those from whom u hope to get it back, why should u receive a blessing ? even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount. No.
Love your enemies n do good to them, lend n expect nothing back. You will then have great reward n u will be sons of the Most High God. For he is good to the ungrateful n the wicked. Be merciful just as your Father is merciful.
[ Luke 6: 27-36 ]
" u have heard that it was said, 'Love your friends, hate your enemies.'
but now i tell u: love your enemies n pray for those who persecute u, so that u may become the sons of your Father in heaven. for he makes his sun to shine on bad n good people alike, n gives rain to the just n unjust too...
and if u speak only to your friends, have u done anything out of the ordinary ?
[ matthew 5 : 38-48 ]
( short, but i find it very reasonable n meaningful passage )
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Monday, June 5
[" the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven. wHo ? ]Children ministry has a big impact on me. I did not realise it, that is not until i was told to give a testimony bout my work, my experience in sunday sch. that has given me an opportunity to sit down n ponder bout the time i spent in sun sch. wat have i learnt ? or wat have i gained ?
i made my decision to serve in sun sch was because of a pastor's message.
but i did worry too, since im not amicable with kids. i tend to find them very annoying, irritating and not adorable at all. everytime when my mom tells me ['oh, that little boy or little girl is so cute...so chubby. i will be like....... huh ? which part is cute ? yew...] ok. aiyah, let s not fret bout it. let everything works on its own way.
i've written bout how a little prayer had changed my work with the kids. yea... it was through this, i began to communicate with the children more. communication plays a significant role in developing friendship bonds. it is through communicating that i began to understand kids attitudes more. how peculiar, the irritating n annoying words, which i had them marked on most of the kids, are being erased slowly.
soon, i came to find that children can be a nice n entertaining companion. they talked a lot, but most of their words are very 'clean'. they dont talk like adults do, that is they mean what they say and will not beat around the bush to let u know something. although they may hurt us with their spontaneously spoken words, but it is alright somehow. sometimes, what they say may be true also.... hehe.
most of them have very funny characters. and this is what makes them as cute as ever. =)
these days i dont find children as a group of 'unwanted' people to be with.
cause they are the most 'special ' and 'beautiful' people in the community.
for it is written in Matthew 18 :
at that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, " who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" He called a little child n had him stand among them. and he said, "I tell u the truth, unless u changed n become like little children, u'll never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."
now i finally understood this verse.
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ChiLdReN MiniStRy
After serving in the children's ministry for bout 2 yrs, i was asked to be teacher. cause maybe they are going to combine all the classes into one and i think they need more teachers than helpers. i had a little doubt bout it cause im not strict enough in handling kids. and also i doubt i can teach the sunday sch's lessons well. it is different from teaching a kindy u know...
but i accepted anyway. i was given a book with the instructions for my lesson. i have to prepare the games according to the instructions given. i have to take the kids' behaviours n abilities into concern too. one of the games i planned need 2 baskets. i only have one at home. but it was also too small. the kids will have to take the crumpled ball-like papers from the baskets.
of course, that night, i prayed for my first duty as a teacher to go smoothly. the previous helper-duty had taught me a lesson. hehe.
on that sunday, the minute i stepped into the church's entrance, oH, nO.... i forgot to find the baskets or to search for a replacement. shit la. how to play like that ?
but i wasnt really worry bout it. i told myself, aiyah, never mind la... later only i'll think bout it.
hehe. it was unusual that i didnt freak out.
the children sang the kids songs, gave offerings n prayed for the lesson. so we were about to start the game. eh... aiyah, my baskets le ? then i walked to the table where i put my bag with the stuff on. i turned to look at another table beside it, to have found 2 baskets on it ! wah .... where did those baskets come from huh ? and how nice it was when both the baskets are of different color. one is blue and the other is red. it surely will make the game easier.
haha. not bad. well, supposed to be very good ! God made everything ran smoothly on that morning.
God will be there to guide us through everything that we do.
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