my hostel room' pictures.
this is the curtain provided by our college.










this is my own notice board.
every student will have one at their study table.

hehe. i love to paste all funny n nonsense notices n pics. it's fun to decorate it. hehe.





this is my bed.
my aunt's guitar is on my bed.
was planning to practise playing guitar when free, but i guess i dont have time also.

yesterday was such a great outing. i miss you gals so much.
hehe.
the funnest thing was to try on the mascara. oh, it's still so fun playing around crazily. though can consider already grown up, but still.... hehe.
still young n wild in the heart ! =P

then trying on all the clothes for fun was also nice to do. hehe. chris......ur right.... try on everything. it's free. aha. the ... i forgot the name of the new shopping mall coming up on 1st dec ..... cant wait for that ! im bored of gurney n prangin. let's hit the new mall together ok ! when u remember shopping, remember evelyn toO ! thought i m still unable to shop till i drop, i can still be your loyal shopping companion.

hopefully time won pass by so fast... still got lots of stuff to do this month. xMas is coming soon ! xMas is the best festive season throughout the yr ! nothing can be compared to the warmth n the.....dono how to say. just feel so excited bout xmas every yr. it's year end. santa is coming ! ehe...

yst when met yc time, aha.... she couldnt say out the sentence........' u've grown fatter !' aha.... i knew thats what she wanted to tell me. im sure everyone will be surprised bout it. aih *

no nice food to eat, but i ve put on so much weight ? where's the logic of it ? i feel weird toO ... hmm.... eating too much biscuits and buns i guess. n no exercise makes me gained weight so fast.

eh, did i mention that i highlighted my hair ?ehe... ill post the pic here sOon.. im glad that i finally highlighted my hair, after taking almost 2 yrs to decide + persuading my mom !

there's one more thing i havent been doing for a very long time. i wonder ......should i or should i not do it ? i have not been attending church for quite some time now. and it's near xmas wor ....
sometimes feel quite tired to attend church. it's like..... i dont have a close fren to stick to in church. there are a few cliques around n that made me feel left out. they just stick to their old frens n never had the initiative to invite or welcome new frens into their groups also. i kinda felt dissapointed sometimes. so, everytime when i go to church, i told myself, im going there to worship god. that's my main reason.

hmm, today since woke up this morning has been having stomachache. terrible. diarrhoea almost whole day. n had been sleeping almost the whole day toO .... not a good sat.

going out for dinner !

yO ~

im back again. long time never blog here dee..... too many personal stuff so had to blog in personal blog ....

nothing much to blog la actually.....
life has been normal .....

returning home is the best thing ever, ever since i entered uni. uni life is kinda stress. of course it applies to everyone too ....

the best thing being back in penang is to get to makan besar ! miss all those delicious food ....
had been eating alot since returned.
tasted steamboat, penang satay and penang laksa dee.... char koay teow also. hehe.
then went to Nando at AutoCity yesterday night. wow........ so much changes. the place has been expanding alot more !
they are very creative -- the person who created the idea of AutoCity. it looks like a small town, a town full with all types of FOOD, food from all over the world. from Asian to Western. it's so cool........... cant stand it. the decorations were so beautiful too.
seeing this made me feel so reluctant to return to kl .....

hi...

hey, thanks for keeping in touch. im so sorry bout my tagboard. didnt know why it isnt functioning. do u have any idea ?
i gotta ask yc or sw when i return to pg. it's kinda troublesome to write comments in here or say hi without the tagbard.

i havent been blogging inside this blog for quite some time already. sorry i didnt reply your message.

by the way, thanks for helping my godbro with his stuff the other day. not everyone will agree to help. =)

well, i gotta say, uni life is way different from our high sch life. hehe. of course.....we have to do everything with both our hands. aih.
from the positive perspective, it's a good way to train ourselves to become a more mature and self dependant for the future.

im having exams throughout these 2 weeks by the way.... ill be back in a week's time. hehe. hope chean yen will be back too. and yee chen.... n also, hope they can still remember us le......hehe.
then we can go and play basketball again ! miss those times le.....

we played nearly everyday......hehe. counting how many times i can shoot the ball. hehe. nisbah 1: 100 ? =)
i only get to play bball once here... with all guys wan... cant find any girl who wanna play. cant seem to find any sports activities here. everyone is so busy with assignments and other activities.

okla..... i promise ill visit ur blog when i return. everything also will be until when i return. hehe. soon already ! ~ YiPPee !
the one and only thing is miss the most is our penang food ! i never knew how precious they are until now....... =P

however i still survived till today. hehe. i even gained weight ! so weird. so, really thank God for keeping me healthy till now. although i have not been attneding church for a long long time already, He is still keeping me safe in His arms. how wonderful.

okla.... don wanna crap so much. eh, i write this post is just to reply ur message only le ...... especially for u in my whole entire blog. very special la u turtlerock..... hehe. kidding !``

seeya take care ! and God bless.

ello.... im already back in penang !
finally. hehe.glad im back home.
the old atmosphere n everything....
the smell of the food.......
the taste of my cups n plates....
the smell of my room....
the cleanliness of my bathrooms....
the face of my car....
the cute lil mashimaro hanging in my car.....
the irritating musics from my auto-gate.....
the sound of the fans.....
so many things i ve miss for 2 months....
are all now in front of me.
glad everything is still in the same order...
and still functioning well.....
oh....i found out that the clogs in my bathroom had been missing....
hmm....
havent got the chance to ask my mom bout it....
the new house beside mine is almost completed....finally !
good thing my house never collapsed....or else....//
n also....1 of the lightings' bulb in my parents' room is spoilt.
ah....my room's tv is no longer in MY room....!
the tv, which belonged to me once upon a time had been swifted to my parents' room.
walau eh ~ i was away for 2 months only my tv also changed owner ?
wat else changed ?argh..... don bother.
as long as im home !
``HOME SWEET HOME !``
thats what ppl always say....
=D ``YIPPE ! ``
( never mind la.... i found out that my parents' tv cannot function well dee....hehe) oh....i seeee........

aih. the moment i ve been waited for has finally arrived. today is already the 2nd day im at home. but wait..... i wanna rewind the story a bit.....

rewind ....

on sat, (2nd sept), i sat for my statistics 1 paper. it was a mid sem exam. yaryin drove her car back to coll, so thankfully, i got a lift to the exam hall (kompleks bestari). how nice. it onlytook us about 10 mins to arrive, without having to perspire at all.when we entered, it was freaking hot inside. n i was wearing a long-sleeve blouse. wat man!the hall was really huge. when we were allowed to start our exam, i heard the sound of the wind rushing in.i guessed it was the air cond....n it was. after 1 n half hours, it was freaking cold pulak. ish.wanna hold the pencil n write the solutions also shivering....even my fingers were shivering when i pressed thenumber buttons on my calculator..... but the rest went well.......only for that coldness. the subjective ques were really tough la....

after the exam, we rushed back. i had to take my lunch n finish up my packing. and then head for the ktm !
yeh....took our uni bus --> ktm station --> bandar tasik selatan --> starline --> plaza rakyat --> puduraya.
the number of times i had to climb up n down the pedestrian crossing stairs were countless !walking up the stairs aint a prob, but the thing is that i was carrying a 10 kg bag. (reminds me of gerald n his bag! haha)
so damn heavy....i had to carry my big n heavy calculus book back for revision. n not to forget my C++ book too....hehe.... but i tore my thick C++ book into half. clever le....i know im good in tearing up books n im definitely not good in taking care of my books either. geez.... a terrible student. hehe.

then reached puduraya. saw D. the handsome guy, taking same course and also not forgetting,staying in the same coll with me too ! i seldom see him around. he's kinda cute. but we werent really fond of him at first cos he seemed to be a bit stuck up. maybe bcos of his looks, i guess.but then, now ok dee la after get to know him. quite frendly. got say hi n bye.....n smile too. =) first impressions are not always correct....

so, when the departure time arrived, we headed down the platform 19 stairs. there was a middle-aged man saying hi to me. yucks. i took a quick glance at hime n looked away. that s not a face i wanted to look at. later, he came down n said hi to my 2 other frens. surprisingly, my frens talked to him in a very amicable way.they know him ar ? eeew..... i cant believe it. cos when he came down from the stairs, i saw his pants was unzipped la ! X ] i dare not talk nor look at him. i just stood at the side, speechless, while staring at both of my frens who didnt see the free show. the guy kept asking questions, as usual, thats what these kind of men do.i was surprised to hear my frens telling every piece of our info to him.....from ukm...going back to butterworth...n so on....

i couldnt thk of anything to stop them. aih. but good thing, after the conversation, he didnt doany harm to us. it' s ok la then. dont wanna meet him again. of course ! hehe.

on the way back....i messaged my dad when i reached the Juru toll. then my mom called. to inform me thatmy mom's hand bag was being snatched by a snatch thief. wah....but good thing the person talking to me on the phone that time was my mom. really thank God for that. so, went to make a police report till around 11pm. dragged till so long. i was looking forward to have a nice, delicious supper with the homecoming atmosphere. but ended up talking bout the whole snatch theft incident. aih. no one focusing on me.hehe.no la.....in the end, still get to eat koay teow thing in chai leng park. it was superb. suddenly koay teow thing tasted sooooooo delicious...........
haha. humans. we never treasure or appreciate what we have or what we own until we lose it.

there is only one person i am unable to meet, no matter how much i wanted to.she ll never be here anymore. i am only able to keep your smile n love in my heart in the years to come, knowing n remembering how much u've loved me before....

hey,

everything is still going smoothly here so far. n i hope things will remain like this.
i am much closer to my roomate now. n my coursemate too. really thank God for giving me such nice roomate. not everyone can communicate well with their roomates u know.

my roomate is fair in everything she does. we divide our chores n even food fairly everytime. so far, she is the type of person i would definitely love to stay with....for a yr. hehe. bt still, i hope things will remain the same n not to turn out differently in the end. people can n will change. so, praying that God will carry us through this year n may there wont be any conflicts happen between us.

even my frens who are staying in the same floor with me are treating me very nice. they are frenly. especially the opposite race. sometimes we have dinner together at cafe. hehe. as a matter of fact, im gaining weight since i came here. totally unexpected la....

one most important thing is that i can online in my room ! wow. how convenient. n i just have to pay rm5 for the telephone line wyre. my other frens told me that they can only online in their college cafe n not in their rooms. im glad la. n my coll is the most strategic coll in this uni. it is situated at the center of everything. my faculty is only a walking distance for bout 15 mins or less. so dont have to take the troubles to catch a bus. really hope i will be able to stay in this coll again next yr. praying hard for this.

everything is going quite well, except for assignments n revisions only. really need to catch up with everything. time seems to be so limited. sigh*
so better don blog so much. just cant control myself. so many happenings. must spill out everything. aih.

hope my frens are doing fine in their uni too. u all take care ! keep in touch always yea !~ =D

how to begin.....?

i just want to post a message for my beloved grandma, who just passed away last wed.
although i didnt get a chance to see her for one last time, but i do love her a lot. deeply.
n although i didnt get to communicate with her much because of her illness lately, i do love n still cared for her. it hurts so much to see her suffer.
at least, one thing im glad is that she doesnt need to continue to struggle, to go through her illness now. but there's one thing ill always n forever will miss.... her presence in that house.

hi,

god has given me a great time in university. everything is going quite well at the moment. and i m sure he will continue to guide me through thick n thin ill be facing here.

he arranged a really great n friendly room mate for me. she's one cute girl too. haha. about my size also.

then yst i went for a meeting, a senior introduced me to the meeting. it was actually a meeting to discuss bout our courses n faculties in detail. so i went. n guess wat?

there was a girl who came to sit next to me. wow. then we intorduced each other. she is also from penang, also from butterworth, n also from raja uda ! haha.
i finally met one from my hometown. so i have a friend to travel back to penang together. haha.
n another funny thing is..... when i asked her for her hp number, she gave me. n her name is evelyn too ! oh gosh. i thk i just met a ghost.
haha. but we are of the different surname.

and actually, yst that meeting was organised by a christian society. they were there to help us with our courses although they never reveal their identity. im glad i attended it. god really is awesome ! =)

A song of an Orphan

The river flows from north to west,
I have come to take a rest.
Under trees, the grass like bed,
There I lay my weary head.

I sing a song that is of mine,
About a widow who was kind.
She gave an orphan a place to stay,
Who cared for him everynight and day.

One day came some wicked men,
Who claimed the boy belonged to them.
Poor old widow fought alone,
To tell the world that they were wrong.
In the end she won with pride,
Little boy sat down and cried.
"Fear no evil my little lady,
Dry your eyes that are now wet.
I will see you be a man, a wise man always in all lands."

Now that she is no longer here,
But her words to me are still clear.
Wise I have been because of her, like a mother she was, very dear.

Originally byThe White Pilgrim

[ '' PraIse the LoRd !!! ~ * ]

oh ~ my happiest moment ever ! ~
when i filled in the application form, i chose all the universities in west malaysia only.
usm,upm,utm,uum and upsi. cause an MCA speaker told us that our results have to be very good in order to get into UKM or UM. so, those universities were not in my list.

when i was editing my application form for the last time, i changed UUM (kedah) to UKM (kl).
i was changing it for fun cause i know the chances of getting into UKM are lower. after that, my frens told me that i shouldnt have applied UKM cause of the low chances of getting in.
aih.....i was so upset. means....i wasted one choice. haiyah..... i cannot do anything already, so forget bout it then.

i keep praying n praying that i will be given any universities that God want to place me in. and whichever course that he wants me to learn too. but surely, i hope ill get usm in penang.

today, i was informed that i got UKM. wah ! it was beyond my expectation. totally.
i was kinda sad n reluctant to go for UKM. cause i couldnt find any friends who are going to UKM.
then my mom was telling me that she hopes gina will get UKM...both christians going there together....cause she's the only one who didnt know which uni she's sent to.

then later gina called me n told me she got ukm. hahaha. how happy i was ! really praise the lord for that ! and few mins later, gina gave me another good news. subatra,my fren, too is taking the same course in the same university with me ! i couldnt control my happiness !

now i feel that im so blessed ! i really really am grateful and thankful to our Father for giving me such wonderful plans. i know, as long as i keep my faith n keep on believing in Him, he'll see and carry me through.
now i know that no matter how tough my life will be in the future, i can always put my trust in him for he will take care of me everyday !

praise Him ! the one n only true God *

[ `` Little bOy * ]

( a fren of mine forwarded this story to me. in it ,it was written that the story can move us till cry.
it is a touching yet beautiful one. =)

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"
The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy
didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more?
Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son?
One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to her son.
She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom."
She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult.
It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings,and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on
the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me;
but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you,
just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU.
I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day.
Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me.

This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything.The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what?!

Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that i wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye n everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed.
Well, you know what Mom?
God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions u asked Him,
'Where was He when I needed him?'
"God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there,as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have o give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life.

Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.

[ ``Angel's life struggles *] ... `this story is not bout me !`

My story begins by me being told I was pregnant. Little did I know my world would be tore to shreds In just a few short months.I went to the doctor for a ultra sound in my fourth month.I looked so forward to this appointment.After my ultra sound they sent me up stairs to talk to the doctor. He looked at me and said I am very sorry we found something wrong. I see that your child has a hole in her heart and said were going to send you to another doctor that deals with babies that have problems.
When I went to this doctor he wanted to do another ultra sound to see what he could find out.After the ultra sound I got more bad news. The doctor said I see the hole in her heart but I also see water on the brain and that she will be downs.My heart dropped I thought this can not be happening. I listened to more of what the doctor had to say.Now he was telling me that he wanted me to have an abortion explaining to me that if I didn't her head would grow so big during the next few months. When she was born she would be so deformed I would not be able to look at her. He gave me a limited time to let him know what I decided.

On the way home that day I was praying."God I cant do this I have always been against abortion but now with what the doctor said what do I do?" As I was driving home and praying for help I felt the baby move for the very first time almost to say mommy please don't let them hurt me. I knew that God had answered my prayer from that day forward I put Angels destiny in Gods hands. I went back to the doctor to tell him that I would not abort my baby. I explained to him only God can take her from me. I don't want to be the taker of ones life. It is wrong.

My doctor looked at me as if I had lost my mind but never did he question what I said. Months went by and many ultra sounds were done all of them showing she was getting worse. The water on her brain was enlarging her head. I told the doctor she would not have water on the brain that god was going to heal her.Once again he looked at me like I had lost my mind.The time came for my child to be born. They had me hooked up to monitors. They were telling me that we were going to loose her that she was under distress.
I spoke up and said she will not die God won't let that happen. At this point the doctor tells my preacher to go in and tell me that theres a chance she will die that I needed to be prepared. My preacher replied no! God will take care of her. I know my doctor thought this whole bunch has lost it.

Well the time came to deliver the baby and as she was being born the look on the doctors face was amazing. Even though I couldn't see her as she was being born I knew the look on his face wasn't because something was wrong. I knew he was seeing a miracle. Angel was born with the prettiest small round head you ever did see. Angel did have a hole in her heart and she was downs but she was a blessing from God above. After she was born they sent me to my room. My doctor came in and sat beside me on my bed and we talked about what happened. I ask my doctor how he could deliver babies every day that had problems. He looked at me and said when I deliver a baby like yours. He told me that he had never in all his years of practice delivered a child that got to go in the regular nursery. Now you have to understand this doctor only delivered problem children. After they are born he is not suppose to have any other contact with the child or parent but he did me and my Angel.

She touched him, God showed him what he could do. Every time Angel went back to the hospital for surgery he was there. He kept up with Angels progress all the time. When I couldn't go in I.C.U. he went in to see her and even brought her a stuffed animal to be with her. When the time came for god to take her home the doctor that delivered her had called up to her room to check on her. I had to tell him she was not doing well he told me he would be there to see her after while but Angel had went to heaven a few hours later.

The doctor came during the time they were telling me she had passed away. He looked like he was going to burst into tears.I was told many things over her five months she was here. Everything the other doctors said she could not do she did them any way. She blessed many people in the hospital and blessed many people she met out side of the hospital.

God gave me five wonderful months with her. I knew he didn't let me down. He honored my faith, He used her to bless people. Angels work on earth was done.She had one lovely older sister [Mandy Langford] and now she has three other sisters, Nicole, Amber and Breanna, all of them miss her as her parents do.

(her mom displayed lots of her pics, i hope she wont mind me displaying 1 here.)




(as i was surfing the net, i found this site, with this touching story. so just thought of posting it.... seeing the miracles God had done in their lives. )

[ *Living Inspiration* ]

My name is Nick Vujicic and I give God the Glory for how He has used my testimony to touch thousands of hearts around the world! I was born without limbs and doctors have no medical explanation for this birth “defect”. As you can imagine, I was faced with many challenges and obstacles.
*"Consider it pure joy, my Brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds."

....To count our hurt, pain and struggle as nothing but pure joy? As my parents were Christians, and my Dad even a Pastor of our church, they knew that verse very well. However, on the morning of the 4th of December 1982 in Melbourne (Australia), the last two words on the minds of my parents was "Praise God!". Their firstborn son had been born without limbs! There were no warnings or time to prepare themselves for it. The doctors we shocked and had no answers at all! There is still no medical reason why this had happened and Nick now has a Brother and Sister who were born just like any other baby. The whole church mourned over my birth and my parents were absolutely devastated.

Everyone asked, "if God is a God of Love, then why would God let something this bad happen to not just anyone, but dedicated Christians?" My Dad thought I wouldn't survive for very long, but tests proved that I was a healthy baby boy just with a few limbs missing. Understandably, my parents had strong concern and evident fears of what kind of life I'd be able to lead. God provided them strength, wisdom and courage through those early years and soon after that I was old enough to go to school. The law in Australia didn't allow me to be integrated into a main-stream school because of my physical disability. God did miracles and gave my Mom the strength to fight for the law to be changed. I was one of the first disabled students to be integrated into a main-stream school.

I liked going to school, and just try to live life like everyone else, but it was in my early years of school where I encountered uncomfortable times of feeling rejected, weird and bullied because of my physical difference. It was very hard for me to get used to, but with the support of my parents, I started to develop attitudes and values which helped me overcome these challenging times. I knew that I was different but on the inside I was just like everyone else. There were many times when I felt so low that I wouldn't go to school just so I didn't have to face all the negative attention. I was encouraged by my parents to ignore them and to try start making friends by just talking with some kids. Soon the students realized that I was just like them, and starting there God kept on blessing me with new friends. There were times when I felt depressed and angry because I couldn't change the way I was, or blame anyone for that matter.

I went to Sunday School and learnt that God loves us all and that He cares for you. I understood that love to a point as a child, but I didn't understand that if God loved me why did He make me like this? Is it because I did something wrong? I thought I must have because out of all the kids at school, I'm the only weird one. I felt like I was a burden to those around me and the sooner I go, the better it'd be for everyone. I wanted to end my pain and end my life at a young age, but I am thankful once again, for my parents and family who were always there to comfort me and give me strength.
Due to my emotional struggles I had experienced with bullying, self esteem and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing my story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything get in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams. One of the first lessons that I have learnt was not to take things for granted.

( continue ... )

this is a forwarded story i received from a fren.
it's very touching n an encouraging msg.
=)